For the past week many of you have been watching, waiting and praying for my family. Words cannot express how grateful I am for each of you. When I launched A Little Dash of Love in February 2016 I never dreamed there would be 5753 followers, just a few months later, who would be sending messages of support and love during another time of trial and uncertainty us. Each of your messages have been read and are deeply held in my heart. You are treasures. This simple little blog has connected us from all over the world. From North America and Europe, to Nepal, Saudi Arabia, Oman, South Korea, Japan, Australia, New Zealand, Brazil; the list goes on and on. We are all connected by one common belief. No matter the circumstance, even when it hurts, God’s enduring love will carry us through.
My Husband Who I Love and Admire
Today, my husband was given the painful news that due to budget cuts he is indeed losing his job. His boss fought mightily to keep him and, in fact, Phillip is one of the last contractors to be let go. In a world where people judge men by their employment status I want to boldly and proudly say I know Phillip is outstanding at what he does. For some reason, God has allowed us to walk through seasons of great blessing and seasons of drought. These seasons are not a reflection of Phillip’s determination to provide for us or his ability as a business man in any way. I’m proud of him and incredibly proud to be his wife.
This Does Indeed Hurt
Today my heart is heavy. Any of you who read my last blog know I did not want to live through another job loss. But, we are here and we are determined to trust the Lord through whatever is to come. I am sure there are many tears that I will shed. I’m that kind of a girl. I tend to wear my emotions on my sleeve and tears come easy. Those tears however, do not indicate a lack of trust in my God. He has not forsaken us. He IS with us. He. Is. Right. Here. He was here when our daughter almost died of spinal meningitis so long ago. He was with us when our son was born too early at 27 weeks at only 2 pounds 2 ounces. He was here when my nurse pumped the wrong dose of medication into my veins injuring my brain. He was here through Phillip’s prior job losses. He has been here through every struggle, every pain, every heartache, every victory, every quiet moment, every tear, every laugh, every sigh, every joy, and every sorrow. From our first breath and to our last, he has and will, be with us. So even though it hurts, and my dear friends this does indeed hurt, I am comforted by his presence, and I find hope in the history of his enduring faithfulness today.
Where Do We Go From Here?
“The Bible makes this very clear. We need to keep our hope in the Lord.
“But blessed is the one who trusts in the LORD, whose confidence is in him.” Jeremiah 17:7
“But those who trust in the LORD will find new strength. They will soar high on wings like eagles. They will run and not grow weary. They will walk and not faint.” Isaiah 40:31
“But you, O Lord, are a shield that surrounds me.
You are my glory.
You hold my head high.
4 I call aloud to the Lord,
and he answers me from his holy mountain. Selah
5 I lie down and sleep.
I wake up again because the Lord continues to support me.” Psalm 3:3-5
Before we even awakened the Lord knew what would happen today. He knows what will transpire over the next days, weeks months and years. If I only trust him through the good days, am I really trusting Him at all? Having trust in a living God is a willingness to intrust yourself to him even when it hurts, even when it doesn’t make sense, even when the tears flow oh so easy. But Nancy why on earth would you trust a God who has let you go through so much? That my friends is easy…He loved me when I was unloveable — at my very worst. He sent his son to rescue me. He has prepared a home for me in Heaven where every tear will finally be wiped away. My eyes are on eternity — this is just temporary. Because He has given so much for me, my hope is firmly in Him.
This song is my hearts song today