I never knew what it felt like to stand in a grocery store confused for no reason or how scary it would be to drive somewhere only to get turned around and lost. Now I do, and I’ve discovered in the confusion, Jesus’ safety is still there.
I never knew how painful it could be to hear the words, “You are so different. You aren’t the person you used to be.” Now I do, and I’ve discovered even with my differences, Jesus’ unconditional love is still there.
I never knew what it felt like to walk with tremors and feel the sting of people’s judgement that I am not, “normal.” Now I do, and I have discovered Jesus’ strength is still there.
I never knew the deep pit of depression that consumes and takes hope away. Now I do, and I have discovered Jesus’ mercy is still there.
I never knew what it was like to wake up in the morning with no clear purpose, plan or direction for my life. Now I do, and I have discovered Jesus still has a wonderful plan for me.
I never knew what it would be like to work hard to reach goals and fail over and over again. Now I do, and I have discovered Jesus’ peace is still there.
I never knew what it was like to be belittled, mocked and openly made fun of. Now I do, and I have discovered Jesus’ courage is still there.
I never knew pondering the beauty of the Lord through a sunrise or sunset could quiet my soul. Now I do, and I treasure those moments with Him as often as possible.
I never knew, that no matter the circumstance, Jesus’ love never fails. Now I do, and I have discovered because of His love, I am being changed and shaped.
I never knew that Jesus would take the ashes of my life and truly turn them to beauty (Isaiah 61:3). Now I do, and I have discovered because of Him, hope is blossoming again within me.
I never knew someday I would with all my heart believe the truth of the scriptures that say, what my enemy meant for destruction the Lord would turn for good (Genesis 50:20). Now I do, and because of the Lord’s faithfulness, I look to my future with excitement and joy!
I never knew…I never dreamed…I never comprehended the vastness of the Lord’s love for me. Now that I am beginning to, I am discovering, no matter the pain, His enduring joy is with me.
There is still so much to learn. Today however, I stand amazed at how He is lifting me out of the darkness and helping live life to the full! It is my prayer that as I learn more about Him, I will shine Him more brightly so all can see His goodness in the midst of life’s storms.
It is my greatest hope, if you are walking your darkest days and need an anchor to grab hold of, you will take hold my story and see God’s faithfulness. His faithfulness to me is not unique. It is freely given to all. He will be there for you always as well! His love never fails.